" After what I've been through i cant complain, although i still do."

i've learned the preciousness of auctions. I got a toaster oven four 5 bucks. which makes me super happy. It seems like most of my emotions have dissapeared. after the incident i feel like i just fell into a deeper part of myself, like a bottomless pit and kept falling. I was a walking, breathing human, with a name and a family, but i forgot everything. I forgot about happiness, about what i like, about my friends, and i was barried so deep it's taken this long to dig myself out. I am still working on it. It is so difficult when i don't have a place of my own. for the past two years i feel like i've just been bunking with someone even though they are family, the only time i actually feel things is when im with joey. My love. He helped dig me out. It took alot of crying and hey come on, we can do this. I know i frustrate him sometimes because he will ask me a question, its always a questions that involves my opinion and i'll have to sit and think about the question Its so difficult sometimes because i've forgotten what i want and what i like. generally i have a small idea of who i am and thats not who i was. I'm still sweet. and I'll do whatever you ask if i know youre not physcho. I like to clean. i like to read. I'm getting back into fine poetry and art. but its taken awhile. Ive always been crazy about music. I like action movies and comedy dramas. I like odd nik naks that not many ppl would own, i've just recently aquired a collection of mushrooms( salt and pepper shaker a lamp and a bill clip holder and 3 other niknaks.)i love blankets, colorful ones. i like toast. So im feeling pretty alright now. Peace!